A Reader’s Story – MS & Phoebe

by Sara on November 3, 2012

Reader's StoryThe article below is a reader’s story sent to me by friend and author Phoebe Leggett (http://www.phoebe-leggett.com) who blogs regularly on faith, grief, and Multiple Sclerosis.

 MS and ME


Receiving a diagnosis of Multiple Sclerosis actually came with feelings of relief. At last I had something to work with.

Staggering around half blind while incessantly throwing up made a believer out of me. Not only had I lost my ability to process information rationally, but fatigue and depression were overwhelming. I barely got through the day without collapsing.

Words left out during conversation made communication weird. Even strange looks from outsiders weren’t unusual when I dragged myself around. As memory sagged, so did my body. I was convinced limping my way through life while trying to look normal had become a conspiracy.

As body temperature escalated on a regular basis, I realized something severe had invaded my body—not to mention life in general. Tripping over my own two feet and falling headlong into the abyss was not only embarrassing, but alarming. Why did I feel so abnormal in a relatively normal world?  Was I the only one who discounted strange mood swings, unprecedented falls, and staggering limps? Yes, diagnosis was a relief. But I knew nothing about MS; even following diagnostic testing in the hospital, and an MRI evaluation.

Learning about the disease has been an ongoing revelation. What I’ve learned could be another book in the making. As information crosses the internet, literature and conferences, the world of MS becomes brighter with each passing day.

There is hope for the recently diagnosed. Many positive changes on the brink of discovery will benefit all; even those who had previously reconciled to their fate.

Every person living with MS has reason to stay alive, alert, and active. The disease doesn’t need to be a life sentence of despair. A positive outlook can save the day. Being the best you can be while living life to the fullest is obtainable.

Enriching information and healing advances of both medical and spiritual achievement are within our grasp. We are the generation of advanced knowledge. It’s our gain when we stay on top of new information and medical research that is sure to improve our lives.

You may ask “Why me? Why do I have MS?”

The Bible explains that God is no respecter of persons.

“For God does not show favoritism” (Romans 2:11) “He causes His sun to rise on the evil and the good, and sends rain on the righteous and the unrighteous” (Matthew 5:45) (NIV)

It’s unfair to blame the only One who can see you through to the other side.

Because I was running wide open before diagnosis, I continue to run free range. I’ve never allowed setbacks to destroy me, and I never will. My motto is simply this: I may have MS, but MS doesn’t have me.


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